a look back at life a few weeks before Gwen/

37 weeks

5/7/2016
10:21 AM

I cant believe how fast the time has gone this pregnancy. I'm technically 3weeks away from due time.  I feel like the rug could be pulled out from under me. And while I'm uncomfortable and emotional and struggling with my attitude some days, and with sleep every night. I'm nowhere close to what I was with Nora. 

I still have time I know. But I just feel that baby is smaller this time and I'm praying things will go smoother. It would be such a blessing to go into labor on my own at home. That would be such a gift. That is my prayer. And while I do have a big list of things I still want to accomplish before baby, nothing is dire.  
I feel that I have spent very little time thinking on all that is to come. I've rather been focused on the present and trying my best each day. 

I cant wait to meet this little lady. I'm not afraid of the labor to come. I may be when it starts, but now I know I can do it and the joys that await.  

What I don't know is how I will ever sleep. I'm also trusting God to give me a good sleeper.  

Having my parents here is a big blessing. Knowing that Nora is comfortable with them and they are mostly with her, sets me at ease. Yes they don't have feeding her down, but she's a picky one. It will all work out fine. And God willing i will only be in hospital one day and then I can come home. I cant wait for that feeling of being home with my new daughter and to begin shaping our new family. So special.