Words are not enough

This post holds so many answered prayers and dreams about to be realized, it feels daunting. I don't know how to start....

My God.  My loving, listening, powerful, scheming, planning, purposing, faithful, and unchanging God...has done us a solid. :)

I'm going to be honest.  I'm going to risk myself and my emotions by being real.

In our first few years of marriage we have learned why $ is the leading cause of divorce.  We have never been in want, we have always had enough.  But, it has always been a struggle.  Finances have caused alot of stress on us and our marriage.  He has continually blessed me with solid jobs.  Yet, for some reason God has pushed Jordan.  We have seen the loss of jobs and the gaining of jobs and the low pay and the raises in Jordan's life.  And I have come to be indignant at times.

My husband is faithful, he works hard, he is so capable and intelligent.  Why, God, do you hold back your blessings?  Why do you hold back rewards?  Why can he not find a decent job?

The Lord spoke to me during our first year when Jordan was out of work.  He said; "The atmosphere isn't ready for him yet."  and puny human Rachel goes, "What!?!? You are God, you can make this happen! What is that supposed to mean?" A month of doubt and questions later God moved and showed me what he meant when a unknown person, soon to be a friend, asked me what she could pray for us.  I told her a job.  Then she told me about a job available that Jordan would be great at.  I think it was a month later, he had the job and excelled.  We praised God and thanked Him.  And I learned a very important lesson about atmosphere.

Moving to Colorado was a very "un-rachel" thing to do.  It was sudden, it was unplanned, and it was stressful.  But we knew it was God's will and He had given me peace.  Of course 2 months here with no jobs disrupted that peace greatly.  These last 9 months or so have been a challenging journey.  Can you believe it's been that long?  Well, all along I have been pestering God.  "When will you reward Jordan?  When will a job come?"

Then in March we found out...we have 1 week to find a place to live and to get a 2nd income or we are sunk.  By that friday we had an apt and jordan had a job washing windows.  Again God showed up....BUUUT not early :)  O He is sooo infuriating!  But in an incredible way full of sweetness and goodness.

Since that fateful week we have made it a habit to thank God for all that we have.  And yet we still found ourselves living that life of month to month and paycheck to paycheck.  Trying to figure out how to pay back our debts from moving, how to rebuild savings and get back on our feet.  How??

I can't believe how much God cares for us sometimes.

Jordan goes to Peru the 1st  two weeks of August.  We had been starting to think about job hunting because his job wasn't going to work long term and we want to be able to make plans, start a family, live freely w/o $ causing grief.  Then Jordan got an email from a guy we met at church.

Suddenly this glimmer showed over the horizon.  And this indignant wife whose hope had all but vanished, felt something start flickering and burning again.  Could it be?  Could this be the wave of response from God that He has been building and scheming and planning?  Has He been up there chuckling with delight while I pester Him about how I think He should work in our lives.  Oooh my God so gets me.  He knows me so well, He planned things out to the day and hour.  And I can appreciate a good plan.  ;)

So we've been waiting on this opportunity for a few weeks and then suddenly Jordan gets an interview.  That day my heart never slowed down and my delicate hope was so vulnerable.  "God, I don't know what I'll do if he doesn't get this job.  I'm so out of hope.  But I trust you."

Let me show you how good my God is.

Jordan had an interview at 11am.  He was told he was a good candidate but wouldn't know for sure for a week or so.

BY 3 THAT AFTERNOON HE HAD A JOB OFFER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  AHHH!!!

I get overwhelmed with emotion just writing this.  I went from joy to disbelief to tears.  A job! A JOB!! With great pay and benefits and training and opportunity!!  All because of who Jordan is and was in front of this man at church, and God stirring that man's heart to see Jordan's potential.

Finally I can see my husband being rewarded I can see the world layed out before him and a big God standing behind him with His hand on J's shoulder.  I can see it.

So...Jordan received this interview with exactly 2 weeks notice for his current employer before he goes to Peru and when he gets home?  A new job awaits!  Come on...think about this timing guys?  Goodness just isn't enough of a word to explain my God.  No word is.  But He can see and feel the swell of my heart.  He knows that this means more to us than more money.  This means that hope...never dies.  That He is NEVER to late.  Even if it feels like Lazarus is dead already.  HE IS NEVER LATE! This means that having new clothes, furniture, more date nights, paying debts, and starting a family are all within reach now.  He knows that puny human Rachel has seen a miracle and now her faith and hope are ablaze again.  This job means so much more than 9-5.

This is God doing us a solid. :)