Shift and Challenge

I will see this season through, I will fix my eyes on you, only you. only you.
- Hillsong live

so my mindset and comfort level has been greatly challenged. and the source comes from one of the most unlikely places i ever would have expected. a Christian fiction book!

now don't get me wrong, i know that these books speak to a lot of people. I've just more often than not found them to be a little corny and felt that they didn't really represent what a real Christian walk is like.  I know it's not fair to lump all books of the genre into this generalization, and i am not.  I am just sharing how i have perceived them.

this book though, i found at once captivating.  it's about a family moving west.  and just by they way the live and by not changing their morals or ideals or habits and living life full of integrity they make a phenomenal impact on a gold-booming town.  there specifically are two quotes from this book that like i said have challenged and blindsided my mindset.

"Why would the Lord complicate our lives with riches?"  this was the Mrs outlook on prospecting.

"A man ought to first find his place and purpose in life and then worry about riches."

so here's the challenge to my brain...

Can a person really..and i mean really... push finances aside and focus first on finding WHERE they are supposed to be and live.  A place they will be happy and make there home.  And then find out WHAT their purpose is. Soul searching and praying and trying different things until they find that thing that God made them to do.  Something they have an undeniable passion for.  and THEN worry about how to afford the where and the what?

I realize this may seem ...i don't know... like money is sooo important. but really be honest. if you were going to set out to find the what and the where, wouldn't you first think about how you were going to afford finding it?  it's human nature.

And i totally understand that there in lies the power of it.  Can you imagine, if we really did totally trust God to provide our every need and trust that He would bless us as we search out His will for us, i wouldn't be surprised if at the otherside of it, the "affording" part would have taken care of itself, or nearly.

So then how do i live like that? do i pack up and take off...searchign and wandering. how does a person discover where they are to live and what their purpose is? Take it from someone who has dug deep and really tried to discover what i'm made for. someone who picked up and left the only home she ever knew in hopes of finding the where that fit like a glove. both have alluded me.  but i still believe it's out there and can happen.

Changing a mindset... hmm. this will take some work.