unattached and adventurous

it's like suddenly i can see a whole new dimension to my life.  Like a mist has lifted from a layer i'd never considered before.  I knew that it existed but i would never allow myself to even go there.  O isn't vague- ary wonderful:)

I'm talking about moving.  I'm talking about setting out on a real adventure! One with security only found in God's provision and eachother.  3 months ago the prospect of moving scared the heck out of me! It made me stressed and sick to my stomach.  I was ruled by fear and anxiety.  Now however..... when i think about Jordan and I packing up and leaving the only home i've ever known, going somewhere totally new, and starting from scratch...job, home, friends, cars, church, everything, I get excited.  I have begun to see it as FUN!  I want to start packing, I want to head out on God's adventure, I want to get in that car or on that plane with confidence and be able to say, yes, we are moving and God is going to bless us as we take this leap of faith!

Who knows! maybe we will find wonderful jobs!  maybe we'll find a place that fits us to a T maybe there are other people just waiting for us to move in and become friends!  Maybe we'll live close to my family, close enough to go visit on the weekends or for dinner.  maybe holidays will be with extended family and not alone.  maybe God has a church with dynamics we can't imagine.  maybe he has a missions connection waiting for us to plug into.  I know the things that could go wrong...there's no gauruntee it'll all go smooth.  but isn't that part of the adventure, overcoming the obstacles?

  I WANT to do this.  I want to leave alaska. i want to give this a whirl.  i want opportunity, i want change,  i want to experience something new.

But the decision is not made - the timing is not yet - and the move may never happen.  This may just be a kick in the pants to help us get up and make a life for ourselves instead of just sitting here waiting for God to make something happen.

for now we wait.... we pray, we seek, we research and we wait.  Either way we expect God to bless us, it's just so exciting!