3 month graduation

3 months

I am fully aware it doesn't make me an expert.  In fact I'm more convinced than ever that parenting is 100 times harder than anyone could imagine.

But I have learned alot already.  Mainly I've learned patience.  People often say not to ask God to give you patience because He will give you "opportunities" to work on your patience.  Never before in my life have I ever been so challenged with patience, and that's saying alot.  I am not a patient person. :)

But these days my little girl can literally scream and sqeal away and yes, I may need to put her down and plug my ears occasionally, but I can also go back and pick her up and figure out what's wrong and sooth her. My ever patient husband, who I've always relied on to help when I reach my patience end, has now comment on how much more patience I have.  So praise God for already using my precious daughter to teach me and make me a better person. :)

But today I really realized that I am finally starting to feel somewhat comfortable being a mom.  I am able to shrug off a week of incredible struggle and challenges with my little girl and say with conviction, "yea it was just a phase."

I'm learning that my little girl is constantly talking to me,  I just need to listen and pay attention.  Like today I realized that when I'm trying to put her to sleep and she starts arching her back and insisting on being almost upside down, actually may mean, "mom I want to fall asleep alone, lay me down."

And now after making it through her 3 month growth spurt and week of challenges, she is such a sweet heart!  she wakes up full of smiles, she squeals and talks away, she smiles when I walk into a room, she unknowningly says "mum" when she is crying and it makes me melt.

As I said, I could never have imagined how hard being a parent would be, but I also never imagined how incredible it is either.  I've never been so in love with someones chubby cheeks, or milk breath or little chubby thighs.

all it took was 3 months. :)