Pregnancy
The last few weeks of pregnancy have taught me an incredible lesson. One I had not expected. That is the power of anticipation.
I have this knowledge that there is a little person inside of me and at anytime, literally anytime, she could decide it's time to enter our world. And I have absolutely no control over when. I also know that even though it will be painful and I have no idea what to expect, I can't wait for it to happen. So I try to "will it" to happen. :)
I have become so in-tune, the slightest change, twinges, shifts, odd things...they all make me stop, evaluate and again will it to happen. I also find myself praying ALOT more, and seeking God for understanding and peace.
Last night as I was reflecting on the newest "developments" in my final pregnant stage, God dropped this jewel in my lap.
"Can you imagine if you lived your whole life this way? What would it be like? How different would it be? How much more would God be able to work?"
suddenly the above paragraphs could turn into:
I have this untapped possibility inside of me, and at anytime, it could be unleashed. A door could open, an opportunity dropped in my lap and suddenly that possibility is a reality. I don't know what it is or will be like, but I know I'm excited about it so I try to make it happen and do all I can to help it along.
I have become so in-tune to the slightest change, flicker, meeting new people, odd things, open doors, un-forseen opportunities, they all make me stop and evaluate and test them to see if this is it. I also find myself praying ALOT more, and seeking God for understanding and peace.
I am still impatient to meet our little girl. I'm still on the edge of my seat with each new sensation wondering if this is labor? O I just want to meet her!!! But this is a good lesson to learn and ponder on as I wait.
