So here we are. Waiting on you God.
I have not been the model of faithful.
I have lost my hope and my faith. I have doubted and despared. But
God, I know that you never did.
You have been constant. Your plan has
never waivered. I have been in your hand and on your path all along.
And when I paniced in the seeming darkness, you kept me from
straying off the path.
God even now I struggle. I can't see
further than a few steps. God I can see all the things stacked up in
front of me. The make a wall, a wall of doubt and confusion. At
times I drown in the thoughts that there is no way to conquer this
wall. That it's impossible for my hopes and dreams to come true.
That there's no way through it.
And yet I can recall my furvent prayers
you answered.
God, give us a place of our own. You
gave.
Lord bring us jobs to support
ourselves. You provided.
I dreamed and longed after a church to
challenge my spirit and inspire me. You fulfilled.
Lord, you challenged me not to long ago
to dream bigger. And I did. I have been trying so furvently to
improve my faith, to build up my hope and to banish doubt. Yet, I am
human and today I have struggled. I have laid my hopes, dreams, and
requests before you. I see no way for them to come true or to happen
anywhere in the neighborhood of the way I envision.
But YOU are able. YOU are my God. YOU
are my povider. YOU never fail. YOU are forever constant. YOU are
the Great I AM. Nothing is to big, nothing is impossible, nothing
nothing nothing is beyond YOU. Because YOU are the great beyond.
YOU.
A challenge was laid before me today,
to focus on what I do have rather than the things I don't. To look
at life with contentment that YOU are my FATHER and my PROVIDER. My
ever present help, my shelter, my refuge.
How long will I fall for the tricks of
the enemy to focus on the lack, to focus on the things he convinces
me I can't live without.
YOU God, YOU know the desires of my
heart. YOU have put them there. I trust YOU to bring them to pass
in the timing YOU have ordained. Lord I am striving to shift my
thoughts from “I” to “YOU”. Because YOU are worthy and there
is none before YOU.
God hear my heart, search me and find
in me all that is unpure, anything that seperates us. Lord let my
life become YOU focused.
